Is my Eldest Anxious just like me?

It’s funny isn’t it? When your kids are born you are desperate for them to be like you. Maybe not just in looks but in personality too.

The gremlin is obviously very much like her Daddy in looks and I’ve been told very similar to how I was as a child. Loud, talkative, quite bright and always wanting to be played with.

There are however things about you that you don’t want them to inherit really. I wouldn’t want the gremlin to get psoriasis for example but that’s a physical thing. But what about mentally? What about her nature?

The gremlin had a bit of an iffy week over half term. She was waking more, almost like she was still asleep. Very strange. She has been a lot more clingy to me too and generally seemed a little anxious. It could simply be the stopping of school for a break and her mind simply processing the last 6 weeks. I have also just gone back to work and am seeing her less. I’m not sure.

She was also talking about seeing us strangely; size differences which I could not explain. We took her for an eye test and all is fine and normal.

What bothered me was she was fretting about it. Actively asking for an eye test. Worrying. I’ve always known she is a bit squeamy and panics a lot when she falls over. She sometimes won’t look at the wound and asks for constant reassurance. The final nail was one she watched an episode of Topsy and Tim where Topsy had appendicitis. This obviously prayed on her mind as every little stomach pain or niggle she has worried it’s the same thing. It has been mentioned a few times now.

It’s like history repeating itself. I was exactly the same as a child and have battled all my life with health anxiety. Hubby and I have tried hard to not talk about health stuff in front of her. Maybe we have answered her body questions too literally? I don’t know but I’m seeing flashes of my anxiety as a child in her. I was banned from reading medical books, as would immediately self diagnose and I’m fearing we may have to go down the same route and keep information to a minimum.

It could just be an age thing too. It’s a horrible thing realising your body isn’t perfect. It can break and sometimes the consequences are scary. Death becomes understood and questions are asked; questions I don’t even like answering or talking about for my own mental health’s sake.

She’s settled down again. Is back to school. I’ve just made myself available and spent more time with her. Left her baby sister with her Dad more. There has been a lot more cuddles and reassurance. It’s all I can do at this point.

I’m hoping it’s a little blip and just this time where there have been lots of changes. She’s growing up and changing herself. I know it’s normal for little ones to worry a little. They want to fit in. They don’t want to get told off and they don’t want to be in a situation that are not comfortable in. Just like us adults, I guess!

I just hope my little one isn’t going to be a little fretter!

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  1. November 22, 2017 / 7:10 am

    Fingers crossed that it will be just a phase of her growing up #bloggersbest

  2. November 22, 2017 / 7:43 am

    I totally understand why you are concerned. I see traits of myself and problems in my youngest. I think we just have to keep an eye on them and offer them support and lots of love. It’s good to hear she’s settled down now back at school #bloggersbest x
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  3. November 22, 2017 / 4:14 pm

    Oh bless her. Hopefully it’s just a phase and she’s alot going on with settling into school too and irs a steep learnong curve. Seems like you’ve got it nailed and cuddles always help! Thanks for hosting #bloggersbest x
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  4. November 22, 2017 / 11:00 pm

    I hope it is just a phase and it will die out soon. It is good though that she can come to you and talk openly about her thoughts X #bloggersbest

  5. November 23, 2017 / 8:26 am

    Aww I guess reassurance is the best thing at the moment and to hope she grows out of it. Maybe as she gets older and he’s confidence grows? #bloggersbest

  6. November 23, 2017 / 10:09 pm

    It most likely will be just a phase but equally if it isn’t you are well equipped to help her. L is very much like on the anxiety front, he is slow to join a group preferring his own company, he worries about the littlest of things and gets fixated on them. I’ll just have to wait and see how he grows with it. #bloggersbest

  7. November 25, 2017 / 8:03 am

    Hopefully little Gremlin is just going through a phase. I agree with Briony, you are well equipped to guide her through it. Thankfully anxiety is talked about so much more these days, so she can confidently grow up better equipped than we ever were. Keep us posted x #bloggersbest x
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  8. November 28, 2017 / 8:03 am

    Bless her, school opens so much to them and I find Alfie questioning everything and wanting to know sooo much more now. I do know what you mean about the anxiety, I find Alfie is similar in certain circumstances, I think they just become so much more aware about things. #BloggersBests

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